when you saw me

I punched my way through your guard dogs
as you prayed for my death
I arose unscathed and slew your entire entourage
i saw you without your clothes
without your friends without your mask
but you sent me back to one
for what?
to see how far you could go alone
to watch little boys cry to their mamas groping for their decomposing tits
I stood up when you called me
I traveled long when you told me you'd wait
the times I saw pass confirmed the inevitable departing
you joined us
combined us
riddled with doubt you command us
the hope you gave the comfort you bled
left me the furthest to fall
and even in my pity my most selfish towering groveling ego
I see the beauty so impure and imperfect
damaged and limping its way to whatever place it must go to die
I see it and I think:"It couldnt happen any other way"
nurturing crippled passion
I saw you change before my eyes
I kissed your unfamiliar lips , so unlike the first time they were unfamiliar
so unlike when devourment , barely contained racked my nerves,soul and cock
I saw the flaw and patched it with your drive and pummeling will
but my complacency invoked your distaste , your disdain ,
again the furthest to fall I was, but it was you who shoved me
you saw no will
I saw perfect plans only poisoned by the indescretion of a cro-mag
I will see you someday and the recognition will thud dully in your chest
the smile of knowing passes your lips , a flawed smile
it patronizes it pities invites guilt and then fades
like it never happened like it never happened